love is everything

Maybe it was to learn how to love
Maybe it was to learn how to leave
Maybe it was for the games we played
Maybe it was to learn how to choose
Maybe it was to learn how to lose
Maybe it was for the love we made

Love is everything they said it would be
Love made sweet and sad the same
But love forgot to make me too blind to see
You're chickening out aren't you?
You're bangin' on the beach like an old tin drum
I cant wait 'til you make
The whole kingdom come
So I'm leaving

Maybe it was to learn how to fight
Maybe it was for the lesson in pride
Maybe it was the cowboys' ways
Maybe it was to learn not to lie
Maybe it was to learn how to cry
Maybe it was for the love we made

Love is everything they said it would be
Love did not hold back the reins
But love forgot to make me too blind to see
You're chickening out aren't you?
You're bangin' on the beach like an old tin drum
I cant wait 'til you make
The whole kingdom come
So I'm leaving

First he turns to you
Then he turns to her
So you try to hurt him back
But it breaks your body down
So you try to love bigger
Bigger still
But it...it's too late

So take a lesson from the strangeness you feel
And know you'll never be the same
And find it in your heart to kneel down and say
I gave my love didn't I?
And I gave it big...sometimes
And I gave it in my own sweet time
I'm just leaving

Love is everything...


by: K.D. Lang

she gives me fever

the small intimate theatre was located in greenwich (east) village.

the play was a 2-character monologue and the first to come out was the actor playing a journalist. after his scene kate came out. she did all of her monologue right across from me. i had great seats!! she played with a hillbilly accent.
[i think we made eye contact a few times ;)]

i am not kidding when i say that i started to get hot shortly after she came out. my hands were burning. i started stripping- took of my jean jacket-it was strange. i wanted to touch something cold because my hands especially were burning!!

she did an amazing job. i got a whole new perspective on the controversy behind the events. i will not go into details about the play because i suck at summarizing and have a bad memory -damn i wish i would have taken notes immediately after the play!!!- but i liked the writing and the actors.

afterwards, i asked my friend if she felt the room temperature had gotten warmer. she said no. i explained my symptoms and she said those sound like when you are getting a fever. hence my conclusion, she gave me fever!!! ;)

i waited amidst 20 or so other fans. i really didn't expect her to exit where we were standing and they had already locked the theatre doors but yes as luck would have it, she exited right in front of us. i was standing next to her, on her left but people to her right got her attention first. shortly after she turned around to me and said "hi, how are you?" i don't know what i responded!!!! i'm sure i said, "fine and you?" i know i didn't say anything in regards to 'you are an amazing actress! i flew all the way from chicago to see your play!!'
oh well. i'm too shy in these situations plus it's surreal seeing someone in person who you have been crushing on for a few years.

meanwhile, i had my friend taking pictures - or so i thought-after getting kate's autograph she told me my camera wouldn't function. i took it and confirmed it - i couldn't believe my Nikon SLR camera wouldn't take a pic - finally i was able to get it to work and these are the pics i managed to take.
kate said she couldn't photograph with people, that she normally does, but she has to be somewhere. she was apologetic. and once she finished she walked down Bleeker street with the actor and some other guy. I was tempted to follow discreetly out of curiosity but
of course i didn't!!


what a lovely way to burn ;)

how to live in the present when no one else is there

"how to live in the present when no one else is there at the same time, nobody catches up with you, is there to answer? the present is made by the pleasure of collisions of two uncelestial bodies in uncelestial fusions."

anais ninn

in her latest interview she said that she doesn't travel a lot but she has been to many places in mexico and loves it. a woman after my own heart ;)

both hands

(beautiful lyrics by Ani Difranco :)

i am walking
out in the rain
and i am listening to the low moan
of the dial tone again
and i am getting
nowhere with you
and i can't let it go
and i can't get through...

the old woman behind the pink curtains
and the closed door
on the first floor
she's listening through the air shaft
to see how long our swan song can last

and both hands
now use both hands
oh, no don't close your eyes
i am writing
graffiti on your body
i am drawing the story of
how hard we tried

i am watching your chest rise and fall
like the tides of my life,
and the rest of it all
and your bones have been my bedframe
and your flesh has been my pillow
i am waiting for sleep
to offer up the deed
with both hands

in each other's shadows we grew less and less tall
and eventually our theories couldn't explain it all
and i'm recording our history now on the bedroom wall
and when we leave the landlord will come
and paint over it all

and i am walking
out in the rain
and i am listening to the low moan of the dial tone again
and i am getting nowhere with you
and i can't let it go
and i can't get through

so now use both hands
please use both hands
oh, no don't close your eyes
i am writing graffiti on your body
i am drawing the story of how hard we tried
hard we tried
how hard we tried